It's almost the end of fall semester 2010 and I can't help but feel...well, regret. I guess in terms of academics, but more towards my social and spiritual life.

Honestly, I miss 'Cuse a lot. I miss all my friends and being around people who believed in the same things I did. I miss eating with someone, just hanging out in each other's rooms, even walking to class together. It breaks my heart to see this disappear from where I am now. It hurts how I'm still holding onto the past when everyone has moved on. 

Loneliness has become a close friend. It makes me wonder if this is what I deserve.. Or this is what it is in the end... 

I fear that once I disappear, it would be as if I left... Without a trace..As if I didn't exist..

Through all this, I have found that I have become a great actress myself. It makes me wonder if anybody around me has the same kind of heart.. That is why I want to leave you with this Bible verse that has me holding on..

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." 
-Deuteronomy 31:8



  1. please stay strong jeesoo! i'll see you over break and we can catch up and talk about everythinggg<3

    i love you and miss you more than words can describe

  2. hi jeesoo its sophia :) i know how you feel. everyone feels lonliness at least one point in their lives and i've experienced that myself here too. although i've been going to church on Sundays and pray to Him, i realized He wasn't really a big part of my life. but God saw me drifting away from Him and constantly renews and strengthens my faith again and again to show me.."Only Christ". He has already solved everything, including the past and He is preparing your heart for greater things :) keep your head up and enjoy every moment! love you.